Saturday, February 02, 2008

Big Numbers

They drew blood again Thursday morning and called me Friday with the results-
drum roll please...

A big whooping 3!

So I am basically in the clear! He wants me to take a home pregnancy test in 2 weeks and call him with the results. Hopefully it says negative and we can move forward.

The weird thing, if it was tubal, I never had the pain that they said I would have...
They said that my abdomen area would be very tender for a while. Nope. I had none of that.

I asked Dr Desantis if it was possible to be pregnant, have a miscarriage and *also* to have a tubal pregnancy. He told me yes, it was possible but very unlikely. We have something like a 1 in 33,000 chance of that happening.

I said, well honey, if there is a chance that some rare freaky thing is going to happen, it is going to happen to me!

*******
I am upset with all of you. You are simply not gossiping enough. I had to tell three- 3!!! people yesterday that I was no longer pregnant! I thought that I went out of town long enough after the whole episode to give you people to talk and tell everyone you know and save me the hassle of having to explain it to everyone again and again.

I don't care who knows. It is not a secret. The hardest part is when they ask me in front of GBK.

And then I have to feel embarrassed that I don't look upset enough. I am *really* ok. It was not a planned pregnancy. It was not my first pregnancy. I was not that far long, it had not even sunk in that I was pregnant. If the miscarriage had not been drawn out so long it would all be a blur to me by now. I am very busy, have a lot going on and luckily my mind is not consumed by it all.

I have other things to obsess over now- firstly GBK's 4th bday extravaganza. We are going to try really hard to tone it down a little this year. hahahahaha What on earth are we thinking? Deep down inside, we both know better.

1 comment:

Sid said...

One of the fundamentals of human development that I constantly had to teach my students applies in this situation.

People are stupid.

Not our friends and loved ones. But people. Other people. People that we do not love and cherish. Those people are stupid and there is no hope that they will ever learn a damn thing.

We all knew and spoke quiet prayers for you and your family. That we did not tell others is because we remembered that "people are stupid."